If you or someone you know is struggling with ambiguous grief or limerent attachment, consider speaking with a licensed therapist. Some losses need a witness—even if the flower was forbidden.
You may feel an intense wave of guilt for mourning the loss. Society might view the situation as something you "brought upon yourself" or something that "was never yours to begin with." This intersection of profound sadness and self-blame creates a toxic mental loop. The Stages of Detachment Losing A Forbidden Flower